Embracing the Now

Dear readers, 

It has been a while since my words found their way to this space and as I sit down to write again (technically type again), I feel compelled to share the reason behind this unexpected pause. The past three months have been an overwhelming journey of grief, marked by the loss of three of my beloved family members (one each month). Now, that I am back after a long vacation I am going to pour my heart again into blogs. 

Talking about loss, death is the eternal truth. You can't just say 'Time-please', 'Wait, I need a minute' or just deny it. I had also written an article earlier on death but it was a bit cliche (link to that blog is at the bottom, haha smooth advertisement, I must say). Maybe, the reason to that was  lack of experience with death (I mean not mine obviously).

Each passing brought its unique set of emotions, leaving me in state of reflection, contemplation and sheer numbness. Despite experiencing COVID, where death was common. Somewhere in my mind I had normalised death. Experiencing the loss of  family members enabled me to see death as it is. 

Most of you who are reading this blog are probably procrastinators. As a responsible procrastinator, I had a list of activities planned to do with the deceased members of my family, earlier. I regret postponing things with them. Procrastination that seemed harmless before suddenly became a weight on my heart. All those plans, conversations I thought could happen anytime, now remain suspended in the realm of 'what could have been' . It made me realise  fragility of life and the unpredictability of time. We assume that, there will always be tomorrow to say the words we've been holding back, and to share moments with those who we care about. However, life has a way of reminding us that tomorrow is not guaranteed. There is nothing like 'right time'. 

My sister once told me that grief will always be there with me. You can either bury it deep within  you and let it rot your mental state, or you can let your emotions vent out and accept the situation. You can't let your past ruin your future. I learned that grief is not a linear journey. It is a complex and often unpredictable process that demands patience and self-compassion. It is an undeniable truth that our experiences shape us, and this period of mourning has been an unwelcome but transformative chapter in my life. My perspective about life, relationship  and priorities have shifted. 

In the upcoming posts, I not only aim to share pain but also resilience.

Thank you 

https://tuskpyramid.blogspot.com/2023/06/death-is-not-unique-its-impact-is.html